My name is Carlos E. Lopez I am senior at the University of Houston. My major is Political science and my minor is history. I am awful with technology and I’m hoping that it won’t cost me my grade. As far as what kind of heathen I am, I would consider myself as an agnostic. The entire trip down that road was kind of weird, I was raised as a Catholic but slowly turned into an agnostic as I slowly realized that I couldn’t really rationalize the existence of a God, the fear of hell though wouldn’t really let me go.
The older I got the less I began to care about what happened to me in the afterlife, I didn’t really care if I appeased a god who I didn’t understand and who didn’t really care about me. I didn’t really dwell on it too much after that I figured I had wasted enough time already. The next time I was forced to think about it was when I was reading some cosmic horror casually, and the concept of gods who didn’t care or that were actually so far out of our comprehension we could never understand them. It was like Lovecraft’s idea that we would lose our sanity just trying to comprehend them. The idea that we cant understand Gods methods, only made sense when it was explained in a more scientific and horrifying way.
The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents. – H.P. Lovecraft